All Nighters

I have to get up in 8ish hours which seems like its an ok amount of sleep, but this girl tends to be a little greedy when it comes to shut eye. My brain is going every which direction (brain fuzz). So lets write! 
-Tonight I was praying like I always do before going to sleep and I caught myself complaining an annoying amount. I actually made myself feel bad for God, like...this man created the universe...He does NOT need to hear me whine. SO to get it all out I decided I would make a list of the top 5 things bothering me currently, and then follow that up with a list of the top 10 things that are blessing me currently. Here..weee....gooo....

1. My foot hurts. My foot always hurts. My foot has hurt for many years. Every step I take feels like my arch is about to rip in half. Whats my favorite sport? Running. What do I do when I'm sad, mad, happy, stressed, excited? Run. What can I not even think about doing for the next several weeks? Running. What happens to Rach when she doesn't run? Fat happens.

2. My boyfriend hurts. He just had knee surgery and is in a lot of pain for most of the day. With me living 4ish hours away I can't be that awesome girlfriend that surprise! brings him ice cream randomly, or sits on the couch for three days straight watching all of his favorite movies, or drives him wherever he wants to go. No, I'm the one that just has to send a text message saying "I'm so sorry, wish I could help!" That's all I can do, and it sucks.

3. I can't find a decent job this summer. Now don't get me wrong I'm not opposed to getting dirty and working hard, but cleaning out stock tanks and painting fence every day for three months is not my thing. I'm more of a take care of kids, teach them how to play a sport, hang out with youth type person. Leoti sucks, there is no where to work, andddd I'm feeling a little bit trapped.

4. My cell phone sucks. Enough said on that one. (and no, in case you are wondering, I did not include my cell phone issues in the prayer I was talking about above. Its just one of the things that is bugging me lately).

5. I have homework up to my eyeballs and I feel like its never going to get done. Two observation journals, two psych assignments, a psych test and final, a couple other finals, observation hours to finish, an online class with three assignments per week. PHEW! Lord help me. These last three weeks are going to make for a very crazy and stressed out version of my already crazy self.

BLESSINGS:

1. Right now as I am typing this there is a thunder storm going on, and thunderstorms happen to be on my list of top 100 favorite things!

2. I get to see my whole family tomorrow! Some of them I haven't seen in about six months.

3.  I have a really nice car that allows me to drive to wherever I need to go to see my family.

4. I get to see my crippled boyfriend in a few days... and be the girl who brings him ice cream, watches movies with him, and drives him wherever he wants to go. :)

 5. I own a cell phone.

6. I was able to help out a close friend who is going through a hard time recently. One of the greatest feelings ever.

7. Tonight I had a birthday dinner for my best friend! It was a blast, this may sound so cliche, but I absolutely LOVE giving gifts to people. It is one of the best feelings ever to see them smile so big when they open up something that you specifically picked out with them in mind.

8. My roommate stayed the night over in our dorm tonight. That never happens anymore and it makes me sad because she has been one of my close friends since I was a junior in high school. We always have a great time joking around and hanging out when she does decide to stay here with me. (Though I hope I'm not keeping her up with the clicking of my keyboard).

9. I'm almost done with my first year of COLLEGE! Wow, I never even thought I would get out of high school, and here I am. Makes me so excited for whats coming up next in my life.

10. Well obviously my greatest blessing is the fact that I know and consider Jesus to be my best friend, counselor, rock, shelter, protector, healer, joy-giver, secret keeper, dream maker...the list goes on and on. I am so in love with Him. My hearts one true desire is to grow and grow and grow in my relationship with Him. This year I have. That has been my ultimate blessing.